I wish I was stronger and able to let go of the old. It's like being a beaten dog that still continues to hunt and beg for scraps from the Master's table.
But I suppose that's just a dramatic interpretation. Even a little Emo. Too bad at this point in my life I'm too old to be Emo (18- no longer kind-of-cute and pathetic- just sad). Also, don't have the required wealth, easy life or non-psychotic family to be one.
Hey- I'm NOT Emo- I can actually feel like crap. Ha ha... I'm a dummy.
But to be honest, my life is weird... but I couldn't seriously want a different one.